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Fic: Forever Not Yours

September 18th, 2010 (08:54 pm)

Where I am: Nowhere
How I feel: indifferent
What I'm hearing: R-Evolve - 30STM

Title: Forever not yours.
Pairing: Jared/Colin
Rating: Completely harmless
Warning: A lone f-word.
Summary: It was pointless.
Feedback: Yes, please.
Disclaimer: Not true, I own nothing.
A/N: No idea what this is. Although, I do think it is my first fic in this particular fandom if I am not mistaken. Not exactly riveting, but I could not get it out of my head. Written in only a few minutes and can be read in less.


We both knew there were no future in what we were doing.

You are a father, you are a straight man and you have a fucking girlfriend. I am always on the road, always busy and never fully committed to anything other than my own work.

It was a really bad idea. And there was no future in it for us. I should have known better, we both should.

But when the sun hit your blond hair making you look crowned with light and your dark eyes shone with an endless enveloping warmth, it was like looking directly at a blazing fire and all my resistance melted away.

We knew it would be over before it really began and we were right.

Yet, I still desired to have your body pressed close to my own, to feel your heart beating against my shoulder blade, to feel your hot breath on my neck.

You did not invoke a fire within me, if anything you doused all the flames that constantly lick at my every thought. And never had I felt more aware of what was around me, what was within me.

After you withdrew from my body, there was no amazement, no corruption. Just peace.

Neither of us spoke, not daring to break the tentative calm that had settled. Both too comfortable and too sated to disturb the peace that we now both had come to rely on within each other.

We are both eruptive. We are both unstable. We are both fire. We are both energy. We are both passion.

But together we are not.